Thursday, April 19, 2007

challenge!

okay.....so missy & suezlou are putting out a challenge.....to post on your blog each and every day!!! yeah right!!! like i'll be able to do that!!! i'm lucky if i remember to go to the bathroom every day....(depends undergarments are a great invention!)

anyway.....yesterday just sucked!......almost sucked the life right outta me! saw joe (M.D.) and will have some little tests next week....nothing major....just annoying! i truly believe it's just a co-worker sucking me down.....and i'm going to have to make a major life change....you know those.....change in job, home, etc......and i think it is time for me to move along......and find something better.....or at least calmer. people who have to stir up trouble and create more drama in their life are just SICK. and those are the ones that need therapy.....not those of us that recognize that fact!... (perhaps i'll change my appointment with the psychiarist.,..(jk) and schedule one in the beast's name!)

okay....off the pitty pot......tried my hand at some stuff last night.....still trying to finish that wonderfully beautiful knitted purse.....just have to get the handles done...then to find a lucky washing machine that will felt it! i will post when i get it done (can you tell that i'm getting a little slow as i age!) also tried to play with paper and glue.....didn't really accomplish anything.....

mr. butt arrived home late last night from chi-town.....and was welcomed by 2 frisky puppies....and one lonely wife!.... it felt sooooo damn good to get a hug from him....it almost felt like he had been gone for months....not just 3 days!
and he brought back goodies.....yep.....IKEA was only 10 minutes from the training center....and he bought that Expedit bookcase that i have been jonesing about!...not the black one....(he said it really looked more brown than black...so mine in white!) and a couple of other fun things....black magazine holders....a couple of throw rugs...(not the colors i would have chosen.....however the puppies dirty feet won't mind)....some metal bars and boards to display my art! ( don't you love the way i call it art....like it really is ART!)

anyway....he's home and all is right with the world!! well...my world at home!

it's 539am....i'm at work....and my anxiety level is starting to escalate.........the "boss" will arrive in the next couple of hours.....and who knows.....is today my last day of employment here???? maybe....maybe not...won't matter one way or the other to me! she really doesn't frighten me.....i'm just more annoyed with her than anything.....her pervasive use of the computer to play free cell solitaire is the most annoying thing ever....especially if you are trying to carry on a conversation with her!.......and applying lotion to her hands and rocking incessantly are just ..........IRRITATING!!!!!!!!! i know....i said i was off my soapbox.......just feeling the need to vent......and after all this is MY blog.....and i can vent if i want to! it certainly is better than crying like a baby.....and that's what i did yesterday!
life is just too short to add any extra stuff that isn't needed......each of us must look inside and find what is best.....and that which brings us down or hurts should be eliminated......and.....well....i think i just made my decision. i will eliminate this from my life. i am a good person, not always nice...sometimes hurtful and for that i'm sorry.....however i am a good person and in order to make myself a better person i need to be around good people.

nuf said!

ohhh......one more thing.....to nancy......thank you from the bottom of my heart. your friendship is something i will treasure always. my new "secret holder" will have a special place on the new bookcase.....and i will always keep some little secret inside of it!!!! thanks for the hugs and ears to listen to me.....timi too...it's so reassuring to know that other's have had similar experiences.....and i'm not just a flipping nut!!!!!! and aleeta....for the "invisible" hug! you all ROCK!!!

i still love my life....

2 comments:

Sue said...

Hey Special K! Great to see your post, sad to hear about your rough patch at work! Today's a new day, just keep smilin' girlie!

becky said...

hugs to you kathy!! i will see you tomorrow to crop! you can sit by me -- no matter what barb says ;)